Sunday, November 29, 2009

Cancer.



I received a bad news that I can never thought of it before.  My dad text-ed me in the morning and told me that my grandpa has a tumor in him. To be short, it's cancer. I feel so helpless. All I can do now is pray for him. Please help me to pray for him also. Thank you.

Besides, I wanted to apologize to two person.

Catric, I'm sorry that I had cancelled the trip to Genting Highlands because of my assignments due date.

Kyde, I'm sorry that you changed your mind to go back Penang because of me *eventhou I knew you dont really wanted to go back* and all of the troubles I had given to you. 


My depression somehow made me purchased a violin from Ebay. It cost around RM400 including shipping. It's cheaper because they're doing promotion now and I bid on near-ending time item.

It's not my first time doing something like this. I used to buy something when I feel depress or miserable. For example, my recent Baby The Star Shines Bright's order.


I had been a bit confused about myself. I had heard odd things from people about me when I'm sleeping. Few days ago, I fell asleep in the Illustration Studio when doing my human anatomy sketches, Kyde and the lecturer, Mr.Khairi heard me "meow-ing" in my sleep.

Sometimes I just couldnt control myself. I possessed my teddy bear quite frequent too. To make him talk and feel real. I dont realized what am I saying sometimes. It just slipped from my mouth, as someone else is taking over me. Perhaps I do have another person living inside me.


I'm freaking myself out.


Kyde has been helping me a lot recently. I like a quote from him when he text-ed me.


"....What's the point of saying I love you when I'm only around during needless time?"

And thank you so much for helping me to buy food for my hammies and coming all the way to check on my condition. Thanks for the cookies :)


I think I'm goin to rest for awhile now.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Pony in the sweet dream.

I skipped my graphic design presentation on today. I know it's important but I cant really do much bout it since I have not print my design and not yet complete my work also. I went to KLIA with Kyde. After all the trouble we had, we arrived in Pos Malaysia Mel and Kourier near LCCT.

I had to open my BTSSB package in front of the custom officers and was supposed to pay nearly RM 1k because BTSSB order cost around 55K yen *I dont realised it's that much since I seperated the payment LOL*

With the sympathy from the lady officer and smooth talk of Kyde, I managed to escape from the super heavy duty tax from the custom. I jumped into excitement. It actually made me forgot bout my assignments for awhile.



Ditahan oleh Kastam.
I will never wanted to go back there again in my life. Seriously.



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うさぎのみるくちゃんポシェット
Milk pochette



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Pony in Sweet Dream柄ハーフボンネット
Pony in Sweet Dream half bonnet

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Pony in Sweet Dream柄
オーバーニーソックス
Pony in Sweet Dream over knee socks



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袖とりはずしPetitフリルブラウス
Removable sleeves petit frill blouse
(Mサイズ・Msize)



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Pony in Sweet Dream柄
ベビードールジャンパースカート
Pony in Sweet Dream baby doll jumper skirt
 

Free gifts
2010 Calendar and 2010 Notebook schedule
 

Sorry, it's blur. Lol



Like the wig with this set XD


Blur again DX



I did some photoshoot for my babies as well few days ago. I still have not edit photos of Cammie. Enjoy, Madeline and Angelica. :) 


They're getting along !



Seductive Angelica :D


Angelica :3



Grumpy Little Madeline not as grumpy as usual :D


Enough of blogging! I will try to do my assignments now. DX



Monday, November 23, 2009

Confused and Blurred

It was a bad day for me. I was trying to get my work done but unfortunately, I cant.

I thought I'm going to print shop to print my work and then go to KLIA. I received a custom tax letter and I had to pay for it for my BTSSB order.

I never thought Nadzmi, Rudy and Farouk were coming to Cyberia. I felt kinda fucked up because two print shops we went were closed. I was thinking to print in Cyberia before going to KLIA but then Rudy sent me and Kyde to KLIA.

I was ignored for a period because he was mad at me. I felt too depressed and stressed with my work and everything, that automatically lead me to slip out some negative words or not-yet-happen facts about myself.
We went to the custom and they told us that it is not in KLIA but it's in LCCT. I dont know whether I should believe it or not because the letter stated "Pos Malaysia KLIA". The post office was closed too.

Since I cant finish my work, I had decided to skip my presentation again. I had skipped all presentations for my final which is terribly bad for me. Not to mention about late submission of my assignments too. During my depression, an unknown number called me. So, I called back and asked who is it. Since he was not answering my question, I hang up the phone. Later on, he text-ed me and told me who he is. I was quite okay when he called me and asked bout my assignments and listened to his complains.

I had my dinner with Jonathan and Kyde when I reached Cyberia from KLIA. Moment later, I received another text from him, whom I wished to erase so much from my life. I felt like crying when I saw the text but I just couldnt do so. I had always thought my wound had fully healed but I was wrong. My wound has reopened again. It is like a eternal painful wound to me. The memories just cant leave me alone. It flashed back from time to time.

Thanks to Clement and his wife for the concern all the time. I really appreciate it. And also to Khin Keit and Jason that wanted to help with my assignments. Thanks. SPG rocks :)

I hope God will always be with me and carry my burden. I need luck to go through all these; passing this semester and things go smoothly with the custom.


Some of you might had seen my work. I'm posting two of them here only.



 

CD Label Design for my CD packaging assignment.
Hope you like it and do comment bout it :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Shrimp


On Tuesday, I asked Bang Long to buy some shrimps/prawns for me. He called Kyde and I was so blur that time and agreed to buy 1kg of shrimps.

We realised that 1kg of shrimps is too much for us and I cant really eat shrimps because I have some allergic on it. So, we called Ikhwan to come over to eat it.

Ikhwan waited for quite a long time for the food because I was waiting for Jonathan to come back and help me with the photoshoot. He kept on rushing me to get my photoshoot done.


My food for the photoshoot Hehe. Ikhwan with hungry face and demanding for food LOL

Bang Long picked him up and then we started our photoshoot. After that, Kyde and Ikhwan started to cook the shrimps with the assistance of Bang Long in the kitchen. Whereas for me, I do nothing. Kinda lucky when I have all the guys doing the work and  I was waiting for it only. Haha.

*shots taken by Jonathan*


Flour and spices bathing for the shrimp!



Deep hot fry for the evil shrimps! >:D



Frying em :D

On the next morning, I woke up and paid for my Baby The Star Shines Bright order. I kinda borrowed money from Catric to do some backup. Thanks!

Here's my order, if you're curious hehe



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Pony in Sweet Dream柄ハーフボンネット
Pony in Sweet Dream half bonnet

 

133★454
袖とりはずしPetitフリルブラウス
Removable sleeves petit frill blouse
(Mサイズ・Msize)

 


133★281
Pony in Sweet Dream柄
ベビードールジャンパースカート

Pony in Sweet Dream baby doll jumper skirt

 

133★845
うさぎのみるくちゃんポシェット
Milk pochette


 

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Pony in Sweet Dream柄
オーバーニーソックス

Pony in Sweet Dream over knee socks




Okay! I'm not goin to tell how much I had paid for all these items. Find it you by yourself if you're really curious bout it Hehe. Cant wait to get my Lolita set *excited*


 
I asked for Jonathan's help again on Wednesday. Unfortunately it did not turn out so well. I need to do another photoshoot again. Hope I can find a photographer for it :(


Self taken photo. Makeup for the photoshoot. 

Random Shots of my babies :)

Camelia and Asha


Madeline and Angelica.
If you're wondering what's the pink purple thing in the bottom middle, that's Riko.
Hehe

I had done my posters for global warming! :D


 



Concept and Idea: Me
Food Preparation: Me, Bang Long & Kyde
Photographer: Jonathan


I dont really like the last one.

Well, tell me what do you think bout my poster k? ^^

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Poked.

I was informed that Angelica will arrive on Friday earlier and I was so excited bout her. She did arrived on Friday!


The postman was knocking my door and calling me few times when I was in shower. He always came when I was out or in shower, wonder why LOL


 
 
Madeline: I thought I'm weird but I was wrong....

Angelica: :)

My dearest Angelica :3


Since I have to print the photos for my photography assignment, Bang Long and Kyde sent me to Alamanda for it. After that we went to pasar malam for food in Putrajaya and "picnic" somewhere in Putrajaya.
It was my first time doing things like this. Some funny moments was Kyde bought me a Doraemon balloon because of he challenged me to do so. After we had our dinner, a police car passed by.

Then, the car slow down and one of the police rolled down the window and said
"Selamat menjamu selera"

We went back to Cyberia around midnight and I went back to my place to take shower. Around 2am, I went down to the mamak because Bang Long, Kyde and Ikhwan were having shisa that time. Went to Bang Long's place afterwards and slept in Jonathan's room since I'm exhausted and Jonathan has went back to KL.

In the next morning, Kyde told me that I was breathing heavily when I was sleeping and I dropped something on the floor and picked it up by myself *I'm sleeping*. I really dont remember any of it. LOL. And now I'm wondering if I have sleep walking. ( .__." )

I checked my email and received a notification from Baby The Star Shines Bright. It says I had made payment and they had shipped out my order. I was shock because I dont remember I had made any payment for BTSSB so I sent an email to inform them. As expected, they made a mistake. I really really want the jumper skirt so much ( T__T) *cries*

I went back to my place again to change my clothes. We went to Hassan Cafe in Street Mall for food. When I was eating, there's two cats; left and right. One of the cat kept on poking me with her paw, as request for food. It's funny when a cat pokes you thou. XD

Okay, enough of blogging, goin to bed

; )




Friday, November 13, 2009

I'm Loved

I'm a problematic girl as usual. I went to campus to meet Mr.Sheikh and Miss Mohana. I still need 4 more photos for my photography assignment but luckily, he had chosen 11 out of 18 photos. I couldnt managed to show Miss Mohana my essay, so I ended up texting her and apologized for my absence on Wednesday's presentation and told her that I'm gonna meet her today.

My mind has been fully occupied with the assignments. Then I had some issues with my Paypal account. My sending limit is low and I cant change it because I dont see "view limits" icon anymore in my overview page in Paypal. At first, I thought it was because of my withdrawal limit for my bank account. So, I made Bang Long sending me to Petronas for the Maybank ATM.

After that, me, Bang Long and Kyde went for a movie in Alamanda. At the beginning, we planned to watch 2012 but tickets had been sold out, so Kyde changed it to Phobia. I did not expect that we will watch Phobia because I dont really like horror movies.

While waiting for the movie, I made a call to Melbourne to my grandparents. I found out that my grandparents had misunderstood me bout my intention of going to Melbourne. They thought I wanted to go there for holiday. Since they were so excited bout it and I cant really say "No", I know that they love me a lot and I dont wanted to hurt their feelings either. After that, I called my mum and talked to her bout it, she told me that my grandpa had an operation recently. I was kinda shock during that moment because I dont know anything bout my family in Australia or Sabah. After I heard that, my heart sunk. My grandpa doesnt wanted to tell me bout it because he loves me. I broke into tears when we're at snack counter. Luckily, Kyde comforted me at that moment and was able to control my emotions because it's public. Sorry to Bang Long too because he was so blur at that moment without knowing anything.

Almost everyone is saying "I will forget bout what you had said" or something like that when I told them that I wanted to further my study in Melbourne. I know you guys love me and it will be sad if I go to Melbourne but I dont really wanted to graduate from LUCT either. Maybe I will go there for my last year if possible.

During the movie, I was freaked out. The beginning part of the movie was okay but not the fourth story, it just freaked me out. I enjoyed the fifth (last) story because it's kinda funny.

Another funny twist during the movie happened when the third story began.


Me: *shivering in cold and trying to watch in my fear*

Kyde: *pats* Gambarimasu!

Then, we heard.

" Tomaranai yo!" 

Me, Kyde & Bang Long: O__O!!!

Stunned for few seconds.... 

Me, Kyde & Bang Long: *LOL* 


*Phobia is a Thai movie and we dont expect other languages besides English in the movie*
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If you are interested to watch Phobia, here's the review of it.



PHOBIA 2 will bring you a collective of 5 horror stories in 1 movie featuring the talented directors – Banjong Pisanthanakun (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA – In the Middle), Paween Purijitpanya (Body, 4BIA- Tit for Tat), Songyos Sugmakanan (Dorm, Hormones), Parkpoom Wongpoom (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA – Last Fright), and a new director Visute Poolvoralaks the man behind the success of Shutter, Alone, 4BIA, and Coming Soon.
There are 5 short stories in PHOBIA 2 which are:

Novice – For fourteen year old Pey the idea of ‘karma’ is completely irrelevant. Pey has committed a crime so his mom decides that Pey must get ordained to become a Buddhist novice to escape. Under the guise of a monk Pey remains unnoticed as a criminal. However, something deep down inside is bothering him. Will Pey’s Karma catch up with him? As he searches for the answer, the grip of fear tightens as he realizes that ‘Karma’ has no friend or foe when deciding a man’s fate or fortune.

Backpackers – Upon graduation, a young Japanese couple decides to travel around Thailand by backpacking. After failed attempts to hitchhike from Samui Island to Bangkok, the boyfriend waves a 1,000 Baht note in hopes to entice passing cars to pick them up. Finally, a truck driver pulls over and picks them up. What is hiding inside the truck’s trailer? Is there something deeper and darker that lurks behind the kind smiling face of the truck driver who lets them hop in? The answers to these questions will cause an adrenalin rush like no other.

In the End – Ter, Puak, Shin, and Aey are the movie crew of an upcoming horror movie. They are shooting their last scene. On the last night, Ter is trying to be cool and tells one of the cast members that, “the show must go on”. So when that actress accidentally dies during filming she makes sure to come back from the dead to finish her role. The four of them Ter, Puak, Shin and Aey must shoot the movie that has a real ghost playing the role of a ghost in the end!!

Salvage – Nuch is a car dealer. She makes her living by rebuilding severely damaged cars. But little do unsuspecting bargain hunters know, beneath the new upholstery and shiny repainted exteriors are cars with horrific pasts. One night after closing the car garage she discovers her son is missing. Reviewing the security camera tapes she sees her son climb inside a car that she recently bought but nowhere on tape has him climbing out! “Cemetery Garage” where you drive off with more than you bargained for. 


Ward – A playful teenager crashes his bike and breaks both legs. At the hospital he is moved from the ER room to a shared room because he is afraid of being alone. But be careful what you wish for. In the room, there is an old man in a coma who has been waiting for almost a month for someone to pull the plug on his oxygen. What happens that night will make him realize that being alone is always better than being around bad company.




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I should be happy because I had friends around when I needed them and Angelica will be arriving soon!

Enough of blogging I guess, need to do my work, IF I can focus.....

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Restart




I went to temples in Ampang during the weekend with Kyde for my photography assignment. It's my first time that I felt such fear to the statues at the entrance. I'm not going back there anymore, I swear. I wont post the photo here, if you want it, just tell me.



I skipped two presentations on today for my final. I'm getting so fucked up recently. During dinner, Jonathan said I look like an aunty with my flowery shirt.


Somehow, I love this flowery shirt of mine LOL
And I think I got thinner again. I'm frustrated with my faded hair color.



I bought 4 boxes of Premium tissues because of this cute small packets of tissue as free gift. Cant resist cute stuff thou.



Furi is round as usual :D


Furu just woke up from sleep


Little Puri


Shy Kuri


Kyde said I'm always blur. I realised that I keep forgetting something so frequent recently too. Couldnt help much bout it. I'm tired and trying to stay awake by consuming RedBull.



Riko: Wonder what's so nice bout this RedBull thing...
Merrinette: I'm addicted to it, I guess?


I have not start any of my assignments, how pathetic am I nowadays.
I hope I'm not goin to fail this semester.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Stress and Fun

Weeks ago, I was in a bad condition because of a guy but I had got over him. Thanks to ED, K, Bang Long, Rudy, Nadzmi, Farouk, Shafiq, Khalil, Ikhwan and the rest. You guys made me forgot bout him. Thanks! :)

We hang out together, went to Halloween party together, went to Jalan Alor together and all those happiness I had.

Not forgetting bout Ikhwan fooling me on the phone also. Nah, I had forgive you. You're still my bitch afterall, Ikhwan :)

I had another photoshoot done which is for Kiki's assignment.

Here's some of the photos.




*Most fav photo in this set for my Deviantart. I dont know why Lol*

My favourite :)

Few days ago, I was worried bout Puri and Kuri. So, I asked K help me send em to the clinic. They're fine and Kuri has some respiratory problem. It's common for roborosvki hamsters. I need to get them new cages because Puri seems to bully Kuri. Thanks a bunch to K for helping me to take care of them and paying the medical fees for my babies.

I had around 1 week left to finish my assignments. Sigh, really hope I can manage to finish them. :(
Wish me luck everyone.