Emma Ai

Some people say if you talk bad about your own family then you are an idiot. Maybe I am an idiot. It’s not like I wanted to do so but all that I had said and in my mind are truth.

I began to feel regret. Regret that I had come back. Home is not my happy place. I do not wish to come back either. It brings unhappiness and anger to me only. No one in this house understands me. Imagine you’re once a child that parents poured all their love and care on you with their whole heart. Suddenly, someone came and took it away from you. From that moment, you are no longer got what you want from this family. There is always someone to ruin your plans and so on. Whatever thing that I wanted, I can hardly get it.

On the other hand, I really do wish Emma Ai exists *Jigoku Shoujo anime*. Why? Because I ask her to send someone away for me.

Don’t I have privacy? I hate sharing sometimes. I wish I have my own computer and camera.

Okay, I think I will stop this crap. Just to make myself feel better by posting it.

Alyssa sent an sms to me and we started to chat for awhile. Thanks to her. She told me how it was in ns camp. I started to feel a bit terrified. Stuff that I have to bring and to do. Stuff that I should not bring and not to do. Maybe I will change my mind to stay in the camp for 3 months. I am still not prepared enough for it.

Since I had come back, I feel not so happy. Or maybe I had been pampered too much when I was away from home.